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Photo Diary #102: September 30, 2018 Sunday, ANU/And Prayer

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Early in the morning, I submitted an abstract to ConSOLE. I guess, even if I failed… I’m proud of myself for trying this month. I applied to ANU summer research scholarship, ConSOLE, and ISFIT 2019.

Today, God simply acknowledged that and whispered I’m enough. What demotivated me is not being on top this semester. If that’s always my goal, then I would never feel enough.

I must always stick to my skills instead of being somebody I am not. But also God encourages me to not give up on my dreams. So far, I have three universities in mind. I won’t reveal them yet. I just feel safe at this stage of my life. Pastor Rick Warren also emphasized not being afraid.

What am I really afraid of? Not providing for my parents? Being too poor, being underestimated… I don’t feel secure, to be honest. But with God by my side, I’m sure I am enough. I’m no longer afraid. That Syntactic Theory problem set? I won’t figure it out! But that’s okay! That Structure of English paper? I won’t impress the professor, but that’s fine! That Quanti paper? Will it matter? Probably not, but it’s absolutely fine. That programming I’m putting off? Nah, will it matter in the end? What if I don’t learn how to program? What’s the worst that can happen? I would still be eating, praying, laughing, dancing, traveling. So it’s not a life or death situation. That summer scholarship? I may not be enough in their eyes, but hey, I am enough in God’s eyes. My extreme receptive skills but nil productive skills in terms of vocabulary, oral speaking and writing? That’s fine! I accept it.  This I hold on to: if it’s for me, it’s for me. I just have to be held because as long as I’m trying, I’m fighting and not giving up, I’ll get to where God intends me to be.

God, I want to take this moment to lift everything up to you. Keep my eyes on You and Your purpose and on the prize! Direct me to where you want me to be! Lead me God to where you want me to be! I am sure I’ll get to where you want me to be someday. I am tired of all the running, of all the trying to be someone else I’m not. I’m willing to try, but I’m not gonna force myself. Lead me God to where you want me to be… in the end, as long as You are with me, I’m in the right place.

I love you God.

Yours forever,

Your Kimkim

 

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Photo Diary #91: September 18, 2018 Tuesday, ANU

A lot happened today. Lolo got hospitalized and I received my Syntactic Theory mark. One lesson I learned today: Never ever give up giving.

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Photo Diary #90: September 17, 2018 Monday, Toad Hall

One down…

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The professor wanted it in before 5 despite upload issues in Wattle.

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Photo Diary #89: September 16, 2018 Sunday, Toad Hall

Today’s Message Notes from Sunday service….

 

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Photo Diary #88: September 15, 2018 Saturday, Toad Hall

Sick nd depressed, I struggled evaluating an almost perfect article… I mean why did I even decide to critique an article from an established journal? Tsk tsk

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Photo Diary #85: September 12, 2018 Wednesday, ANUFA

To be honest, I was really disapppinted by the outcome…But well, I tried my best.

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Photo Diary #84: September 11, 2018 Tuesday, Working ON CV

Realised I had to werq… Patterned this CV from Harvard Phds… 😦

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Photo Diary #83: September 10, 2018 Monday, Meeting with ANUFA

Worked the whole day for Filipino Tutorial ppts today…

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Photo Diary #82: September 09, 2019 Sunday, When Others Keep Setting You Back

God’s message this Sunday

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Photo Diary #81: September 8, 2018 Saturday, Toad Hall

Cosmos the whole day

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