God’s Messages

Photo Diary #126: October 26, 2018 Friday, ANU/Quantitative Presentation

Since I had another presentation after yesterday, I decided to wear my lucky blouseĀ again. Hahahaha. I was tearing up while walking to my 2PM presentation because I hadn’t practiced, and I wasn’t even sure of my interpretations. I thought it’s going to be a disaster… But it did happen again! NO question, except for a clarification. And the brightest student even approached me and told me, he liked my presentation. He said, it’s pretty cool. I think they’re impressed with the content. And my other classmates were saying it was excellent. Again, I couldn’t believe why I’m getting this reaction. Sometimes, I felt I was just imagining things… but I saw their eyes lit up and their mouths open (same reaction in Japan during my speeech). I am really happy! I am extremely grateful to God! Because again, it’s not the same with my Filipino tute for a reason… but here, because a grade is involved, God reversed it. Thank you God! You heard me! I remembered walking to the venue, shaking because I didnt’ have breakfast and lunch and the printer at Toad Hall acted up so I spent 15 minutes there. Fortunately, a nice guy offered to print my handouts for me. Everything fell into place on that day! I was praying, “God, I offer this to you!” while heading to the venue and started tearing up. I was even expecting a 70, but I got a 90 for that presentation! I think what’s more important is seeing my professor happy, and the brightest student impressed.

I couldn’t have done this without You!

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Photo Diary #125: October 25, 2018 Thursday, ANU/HUMN Final Presentation

I was the the last presentor for HUMN8032. Unfortunately, as always the case I don’t have the photo of my presentation except after it’s done.

I didn’t know how it would turn out because my paper seems soooo specific and focused. I didn’t know how to rally for its significance… but of course, I practiced every day since Saturday especially that the professor for this course has high standards and because I always drew close to the 10-minute mark; I was anxious of extending and not finishing my arguments. I even practiced removing the reading of the title just to save time. However, during the presentation, the presentors were presenting their titles themselves instead of Catherine who used to introduce the title for the speakers. Ha! My title was long and I would need that 20 seconds. But A miracle happened on that day! The professor told me, wait for me, let me introduce you. I was shocked. ahahahahaha. And then after the presentation… when the professor asked, questions? The Australian guy who always had questions just simply exclaimed, “wow!” And everyone was clapping. I really thought it’s average. Of course, the professor asked a question. I was so deaf. I couldn’t understand what’s she’s saying… mainly because I was all too happy of the reaction (ha, my miracle black notebook worked again! Just kidding! Of course God did answer my prayer). It was so surreal, it’s the same reaction I got in the US at the Fulbright Conference in Washington DC and at college where my classmates were saying “you’re a beast”. I thought I lost this skill especially after the disastrous Filipino Tutorial a few months ago. But God did move again~ It worked. What Filipinos back home saw whenever I present was the same Kayla they did see during this presentation. They’re all impressed. I had a good cry after in my little nook, praising and thanking God.

This is what I learned: we can practice all we want, in the end it’s God who decides what reaction we’ll get. I did work hard on the Filipino tute, but it fell apart for a reason. This first presentation was different. Kayla’s back. šŸ™‚

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Photo Diary #121: October 21, 2018 Sunday, We Need Others for Spiritual Support

Something really relevant to me…God has also been telling me not to look for glory after glory. Instead of being hurt, I felt at peace with this message. It made me realise how futile the search for glory is; it will only lead to more hunger. God, I offer my life to you. Screen Shot 2018-10-28 at 1.01.59 pm

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Photo Diary #112: October 12, 2018 Friday, ANU

This has been the longest day for me! I could’t solve it, but I have no choice. I will just do my best in the next assessment. (Thank you God for the clustering and classification quanti analysis we had today, I had fun).

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Photo Diary #107: October 07, 2018 Sunday, Toad Hall

Live upward, inward and outward!

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Photo Diary #102: September 30, 2018 Sunday, ANU/And Prayer

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Early in the morning, I submitted an abstract to ConSOLE. I guess, even if I failed… I’m proud of myself for trying this month. I applied to ANU summer research scholarship, ConSOLE, and ISFIT 2019.

Today, God simply acknowledged that and whispered I’m enough. What demotivated me is not being on top this semester. If that’s always my goal, then I would never feel enough.

I must always stick to my skills instead of being somebody I am not. But also God encourages me to not give up on my dreams. So far, I have three universities in mind. I won’t reveal them yet. I just feel safe at this stage of my life. Pastor Rick Warren also emphasized not being afraid.

What am I really afraid of? Not providing for my parents? Being too poor, being underestimated… I don’t feel secure, to be honest. But with God by my side, I’m sure I am enough. I’m no longer afraid. That Syntactic Theory problem set? I won’t figure it out! But that’s okay! That Structure of English paper? I won’t impress the professor, but that’s fine! That Quanti paper? Will it matter? Probably not, but it’s absolutely fine. That programming I’m putting off? Nah, will it matter in the end? What if I don’t learn how to program? What’s the worst that can happen? I would still be eating, praying, laughing, dancing, traveling. So it’s not a life or death situation. That summer scholarship? I may not be enough in their eyes, but hey, I am enough in God’s eyes. My extreme receptive skills but nil productive skills in terms of vocabulary, oral speaking and writing? That’s fine! I accept it.Ā  This I hold on to: if it’s for me, it’s for me. I just have to be held because as long as I’m trying, I’m fighting and not giving up, I’ll get to where God intends me to be.

God, I want to take this moment to lift everything up to you. Keep my eyes on You and Your purpose and on the prize! Direct me to where you want me to be! Lead me God to where you want me to be! I am sure I’ll get to where you want me to be someday. I am tired of all the running, of all the trying to be someone else I’m not. I’m willing to try, but I’m not gonna force myself. Lead me God to where you want me to be… in the end, as long as You are with me, I’m in the right place.

I love you God.

Yours forever,

Your Kimkim

 

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Photo Diary #96: September 23, 2018 Sunday, Toad Hall

Sunday is still work for me…(well after God’s amazing Sunday message that resonated with what I will be facing the coming week).

But I must not skip my pizza day…

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Photo Diary #96: September 23, 2018 Sunday, Toad Hall

Sunday is still work for me…(well after God’s amazing Sunday message that resonated with what I will be facing the coming week).

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But I must not skip my pizza day…

Dear God,

I thank you for giving me strength and for assuring me that you are with me in this journey. I feel so small, but with you I’m adequate. I’m enough. If you say I’m enough, I’m enough. I don’t have to push myself, I don’t have to try enough because you are enough.

I love you God.

Yours always,
Kim kim

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Photo Diary #89: September 16, 2018 Sunday, Toad Hall

Today’s Message Notes from Sunday service….

 

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Photo Diary #82: September 09, 2019 Sunday, When Others Keep Setting You Back

God’s message this Sunday

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