I’m trying my best to be brave enough in accepting the “No” of God to say “Yes” to an unknown you. It’s hard because frankly, I am obsessed and in love with a certain man. I never thought loving him could hurt this much, not because he doesn’t treat me well, but because I love him so much (it aches)- I can repeat that several times. In fact, so far, he is the first man who loves me back and cares much about me. Now, why didn’t I choose him? Because, he is not a Christian. He belongs to a very influential family, and their faith and culture are something they carried on for many years. You see, “being a Christian” is the only non-negotiable quality I have on my quality list for a marriage partner. Where are you? I hope we meet soon. Please? God chose you, you know. He fought for you, enough to lay down my defenses, my negotiations with Him every night-like a daughter who convinces her dad to like the bf. To no avail, though. And it dawned on me that You “are” better because He wants you, knows you can love, care, and treat me more, and most of all because our relationship can help the building of His kingdom. Archit might say I’m a selfish coward, but I also stand to my conviction that there is no greater act of love and courage than to walk away for God’s will.
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About kaylathetheoxenophile
Hi everyone! I’m kayla. This is my first attempt to share my thoughts through blogging. Got lots of exploring to do. Don’t even know where to start and what to say. To start the ball rolling, allow me to share with you some of the fallacies about Kayla Marie Sarte.
1. Writing is just not my line. Although most considered me as a creative writer, I doubt I have that knack. I’m direct to the point. My essays are straight. As long as I get the message across then that’s fair enough for me.
2.I’m not a walking encyclopedia, got that? How funny it is to be asked by some bunch of kiddos bout tons of stuffs I don’t know or even have heard. Worse? They expect me to answer their queries in a snap. Good thing, I can always find the usual “busy” excuse to elude their endless questions.
3. You just don’t know how pain in the ass reading is to me. I always record the days I spend reading and do my best to keep the pace. Yeah, I’m a literature major but it’s uhmm, ….
Except for required readings in my literature classes in the class, I haven’t truly deal with literary works personally. Good heavens, I found John Grisham and Dean Koontz – my all time faves. (In my later posts, I’ll be sharing my thoughts bout their books.)
4. One thing I found truly bleak about me is my loved for movies. I don’t like cinematography or even crave like Glenn Ortiz to be the Steven Spielberg of this race. I just enjoy watching movies on the big screen. That’s all. So, it’s a fallacy that I like cinematography… just the movies.
5. Call me braggart, arrogant. Many think so because of the achievements I gained in the past aching yet meaningful 15 education years of my life. What they don’t know is how negative and perturbed, covered with worries, stressed I am most of the time. No matter how great the laurel I get, I always look back at the failurs I’ve been through in the past. So, that goes to mean, I don’t think highly of myself or consider my awards that much.
Top 3 things about me:
1. A Theophile
2. A Xenophile
3. Just Kayla Marie B. Sarte
That’s all for now. You’ll get to know more about me soon and about the project 2012 that led me to explore blogging. J
One thing is certain for me though, I love who I am for I am fashioned the way I fit exactly in a large mosaic we are all in. Be happy. Live life according to God’s will. – Kayla Sarte
