Today’s very hectic! We had to finalize everything before the big day tomorrow. So from Surallah where mom bought the needed spices and fish, we proceeded to Koronadal city to get the wedding gown. While waiting for Llamas Gown Shop to finish it, Ate Karen, Tita Janet, Teresa, Kikay, Kik and me stayed at KCC Mall to also buy the necessary things for the wedding like the Marshmallow, Chocolate sticks for the Chocolate fountain and the bride’s Revlon Liquid Foundation. When we headed back to the shop, I found out that the wedding gown was far from what my sister had requested them to make. What’s worse was that it looked like an ordinary gown with ordinary cloth which is commonly used in Barrio weddings. I laud my mom for showing everyone how to act with grace amidst frustrations.
When we went back to the house, my sister was dismayed but we had to shove it off for a while because of the church practice that we needed to attend to.
After the practice, my sister suggested that we go check wedding gowns for rent at Palomar’s. To our dismay, the shop was close. So silently I was freaking out and praying at the same time because I really wanted what’s best for my sister. Fortunately, we were able to talk to the attendants and so they opened the shop for us. The gowns were well-designed and were all elegant. Thank God, my sister found the exact gown that she wanted plus they also offered a free veil which will make my sister look like a wood fairy that really matched the design of the bridesmaids’ gown. We had the gown and the theme at the same time. LOL
The night ended with a meeting with all the bridesmaids. I was there listening and just adding missed details. Well, I wasn’t assigned as the overall in-charge but I knew everything will work out just fine.
I really thank Jesus for turning everything unacceptable to something better than expected. I again saw God’s hands worked through all these. More than that, I believed I’ve grown into that person that I expect myself to be: mature, independent, elegant. For the past weeks, I didn’t mind not being the center of attention which I used to be since birth. In addition, I became that person everyone turned to whenever they need something because they trust my leadership and my decisions. Even my mom asked for my advice. What struck me the most is when my tita Regie commented, “Kanami sa imo day ah, matured ka na gid, sang una daw bata bata ka pa.” Hooray for that! Plus dad’s “Nahalata ko, indi ka na palapangakig. Daw nami na gid ka nak.” It’s tiring to find strength in yourself and not leaning on anyone. All the more when you have to keep what you feel for the sake of everyone else, but I am proud because I survived and the secret? Loving yourself and knowing that God is with you. It’s true, I have the strength in everything through Jesus who strengthens me. I can even cure myself now (literally), it’s a strength that comes from Jesus. When you can finally heal yourself and find strength in yourself, you know that your FAITH has become stronger but more than that, your love for yourself and for others grow.
Everything stems from believing in God’s love and knowing that you are loved by GOD. When you genuinely acknowledge that? You begin to love yourself which radiates in your relationships because you also, in the process, become a selfless, caring, kind person.